I have insomnia Life in the fast lane seems exciting and glamorous, but it leaves DUNCAN BLUE unable to sleep...
So, what exactly is insomnia? Insomnia is when you cant get to sleep. Your bodys tired and wants to sleep but your brains still active and you cant shut it off. My problem is that no matter how much I try, I cant get myself into a pattern where Ill slee p. Its frustrating cos youre tossing and turning and its especially bad when youve got to get up for work in the morning. Youre looking at your watch all the time, seeing the hours go by and thinking, Ive only got four hours sleep left! then three hours, then two. By that time youre really angry and upset with yourself and just want to sleep.
What do you think of when youre trying to sleep? I have random thoughts and think lots of really weird things. If youve got a lot on your mind, a lot of worries and a hectic life, it makes it worse. Insomnia doesnt run in my family - its just me, so Ive got to try to cope with it.
What do you do when you cant sleep? I just lie there usually, but last night I started playing on my computer. Then I got angry with myself and was like, What am I doing? Its 5.30am and Ive got to be up at 7.30am!
And how do you feel the morning after? I feel sick all day, so I cant eat properly. I yaw n a lot too and havent got much energy. This morning I fell asleep half an hour before I had to get up, so when I woke up I felt worse than I had the whole night. Ill be lying in bed thinking, Can I get out of today? but its not fair, and usually after Ive had a shower I feel a bit better, I just try to get my head down when I get a spare half-hour.
Is there anything you avoid cos it makes your insomnia worse? I try not to drink caffeine or take things like Pro Plus - it makes me shake and feel sick. Ive found that drinking orange juice and eating fresh fruit is good cos it gives me natural sugars and energy.
Does your tiredness make you short-tempered or depressed? Just despondent, really - like a zombie. The night before I presented Party In The Park I got no sleep at all and I was worried cos I needed to be on the ball. I do get short-tempered, but mostly Ill go quiet and distance myself from the other lads and all the jokes. They know to lea ve me when Im like that!
Do any of the other lads suffer similar problems? Si does sometimes - he couldnt sleep last night cos he was excited about being back at work!
What have you done to combat the problem? When I went to America I got some melatonin, a natural herbal remedy. I like natural things. Ive tried camomile tea and lavender pillow spray - but they just seem to calm me.
Have you been to your doctor about it? Yeah, they just suggested cutting out caffeine, trying not to stress about things and not eating after about 8pm. But its hard not to stress cos Im a worrier and I let things affect me.
How do you avoid getting dark circles under your eyes? If I dont sleep tonight Ill be really tired and puffy-eyed tomorrow. Our make-up artists got eye gels and stuff, though, and I try to drink lots of water, which helps.
Do you find it easier to sleep in certain places? I can get insomnia at home or in hotels, it doesnt matter. But of course if I go out partying until 5am I dont usually have any problems sleeping, ha-ha!
Whats your advice to other sufferers? Id suggest trying the conventional things like aromatherapy, lavender and camomile teas. Working on your breathing and meditation can be good too! I should try yoga but its just finding the time, isnt it? Also, dont eat late and avoid caffeine. But counting sheep has never worked for me.
duncan saat 5.30da köpei sindynin havlamalaryla uyand.ne olduunu merak ettii i
çin pijamalaryla bahçeye çkt.bahçede elinde büyük bir kutu tutan saçlar
beyazlam,postacya benzeyen bir adam duruyordu.duncan kapnn kenarndan
bahçe kapsnn önündeki adama
-köpeimin kusuruna bakmayn,buyrun ne istemitiniz
diye sordu.
-aslnda ben sizden özür dilerim,
saat be buçukta gelmekle sizi de uykunuzdan ettim.saat 1.30da uçak dütüde bu kutuyu size göndermiler.kimden ve neden olduunu bilmiyorum
dedi ve kutuyu duncan'n eline uzatt.duncan yüzünde arm bir ifadeyle kutuyu
adamn elinden ald ve teekkür etti.elinde kutu evine girerken umarm kötü birey
deildir,diye düünüyordu.koltua oturdu ve kutuyu açmaya balad.kutunun içinden
bir cep telefonu,saat ve apka çkt.duncan bunlarn kimin olduunu düünürken
alttaki mektup dikkatini çekti.mektupta:
sevgili olum;u an ingiltere-fransa uçandaym. daha demin bize gelen habere göre uçamz yarm saat içinde düecekmi. herkezin istedii bir kiiye mektup
yazmasmektuplarn okiilere ulaacan söylediler. ben yurt dnda olduumdan senle 7
aydr görüemiyorduk. beni ben ölüncede hatrlaya bilmen için sanasaatimi
ceptelefonumu ve apkam gönderdim
seni çok seven baban
duncan mektubu okurken gözlerinin dolduunu fark etti. mutfaktan bir mendil ald ve gözlerindeki yalar sildi. sonra odasna gitti,ban yasta gömdü ve alamaya balad.
